Hi All, It’s Charlotte (briefly – again!). I just wanted to introduce you to Nicola who’s sharing her experience of Melasma during and after pregnancy. Nicola was a real bride with us a few years ago over on Rock My Wedding so we’re really glad she’s back to share her witty and honest writing style over here on our family pages.
I suffered from mild melasma for years due to the contraceptive pill, I would just have to look at the sun and my forehead would develop uneven brown patches. I still have a permanent patch on my right cheek. Nicola’s experience has therefore been particularly enlightening and interesting for me so please do give her a warm welcome and share your thoughts and advice in the comments box below.
Nicola: I’d just like to acknowledge before getting in to this post that of all the ‘negative things’ to experience during pregnancy; I would happily experience this over anything else. Ever. It is, after all, a cosmetic issue and on the grand scheme of things, I admittedly don’t think my pregnancy mask is even that severe.
Pregnancy Hit Me Like A Tonne Of Bricks.
Firstly (and immediately after seeing that little blue line appear on the preggo test) I found myself on the rocky emotional rollercoaster. Were we ready? Was it really the right life decision? Wow – we are so lucky it happened so quickly!
Sh*t, I drank loads of beer and ate raw beef yesterday – is the baby ok??!!
Secondly, I was absolutely floored with fatigue. I was aware of post-natal depression, but found myself googling ‘depression during pregnancy’ as I felt completely debilitated by tiredness and a bit lost as a person – which was at complete odds with my usual high-energy and happy-go-lucky self. I was constantly asking myself (and google) “is this normal?”
But, I consider myself very lucky. I thankfully escaped morning sickness entirely. Any slight nausea was cured by lashings of pasta… seriously people, I am talking breakfast, lunch and dinner (and in between meals, who am I kidding!).
I suffered no SPD; high blood pressure; preeclampsia; gestational diabetes and every doctor’s appointment was positive and on track. I remember feeling so, so grateful at the time that my pregnancy was progressing complication free, and feel even more appreciative in hindsight.
I feel so guilty saying it, but I didn’t really enjoy being pregnant.
I was looking forward to getting through the first trimester as I’d heard great things about energy levels returning by week 13 (was more like week 19 for me, but thankfully I did get the ‘back to normal’ feeling as I know some women experience fatigue for the whole 40+ weeks). I was also ready for the infamous pregnancy glow to kick in. But there was no glow on this mug.
Instead, I acquired more and more freckles and pigmentation patches across my cheeks and around my eyes, which I discovered was melasma, or chloasma or the pregnancy mask as it is colloquially called. I remember my Mum having a light brown patch on her jawline when I was younger and after a bit more googling found that it can be hereditary, was not dangerous (it isn’t cancerous and does not develop in to skin cancer) and couldn’t be ‘treated’ while pregnant. You can read more about it on the British Skin Foundation website.
Treating My Melasma/Pregnancy Mask
Throughout my pregnancy I was already conscious of what I was using on my skin, swapping many of my regular products for pregnancy friendly ones (I absolutely adored the sanctuary spa mum-to-be bounce back body butter from Boots and still use it as it smells soooo good) so I knew that using acidic and/or whitening products on my face to address the pigmentation was an absolute no-go. The best I could do while my baby was in my belly was maximise prevention.
As a matter of course, I wear SPF 30 on my face every single day (being aware of the well-publicised benefits) Even though I was pregnant during the brutal New York winter (I was stateside for the first 22 weeks of my pregnancy from Jan until May) the pigmentation got more dense and therefore darker, especially on the right hand side of my face, and it spread across my cheeks, around my eyes/temples and above my eyebrows. I’ve also heard it gets called a butterfly mask and that is exactly what it looked like.
As soon as there was a glimmer of sun, I wore a wide brimmed hat (as well as the SPF 30). I knew I was prone to pigmentation as during a summer holiday that coincided with my period week, I had a flare up of pigmentation above my right eyebrow and comes and goes with any level of UV exposure. This prompted me to be militant about SPF on my face at all times: so vain, I know.
Google, doctors, midwives and friends told me that pregnancy masks commonly fade after child birth. Sometimes it can be immediate. Baby out: mask gone. But that wasn’t my experience. I breastfed my little girl for the first four months, so continued using all of my baby friendly products and therefore didn’t touch any of the whitening products for a while.
It’s faded but not gone.
My little girl is now 16 months old and while the pigmentation has faded a lot above my eyebrows, around my eyes and on my left cheek, it is still dark and very noticeable on my right cheek.
I have been an avid SKII skincare user for a few years and have always raved about the cellumination range, in particularly the cellumination essence as it has always delivered great results in evening out my skin tone to create a brighter complexion, so I was desperate to start using that product again. But sadly, and I really dislike saying this – it just didn’t make a difference.
I went to a medispa that boasts a great reputation for a consultation and ended up buying over £300 worth of products in an attempt to ‘whiten’ my skin. Again, while the products are truly lovely, and overall has made my complexion brighter – it didn’t really address the pregnancy mask with any great effect.
The one topical product I am finding is having a positive affect is Resurface by Shani Darden retinol reform. I have never been brave enough to try a retinol (Vitamin A/retinoid) as I have heard scary stories about it thinning the skin and therefore exposing skin to sun damage and aging, as aforementioned I am rather particular in avoiding that. But I did a lot of research and felt very comfortable to try this one, and I have to say it appears to be fading the pigmentation after only two weeks (I use it every other night and continue to use the cellumination essence every other day, on the days I don’t use the retinol).
I am yet to invest in non-invasive treatments like hydro-derma or macro-derma facials, light therapy or peels. The main reason is simply not having the stash of cash to commit to them regularly, and I know a one off isn’t going to cut the mustard.
Affecting My Confidence
I have tried a few cosmetic products in an attempt to conceal the mask, treating it like a blemish. Namely, this colour corrector from Bobbi Brown and this concealer from Clarins (which gets rave reviews for its coverage efficacy from beauty bloggers) but I actually think it looks better ‘uncovered’. I do like those products but I think by trying to conceal the area actually made it look more prominent.
I get waves of feeling self-conscious about it. Oddly, not so much on no-make up days, which let’s be honest – is most days. But when I attempt to get dolled up, it seems to be stubbornly on my face. I have had to alter the colour blusher I wear as some pinker tones don’t look quite right on the darker patches.
I wouldn’t say it has made me less confident though. I didn’t get stretch marks and so in a way I feel like this is my aesthetic symbol of motherhood. Would I rather not have it? Of course I would. My husband likes it. When it first started to appear, he said ‘ooh love, your freckles are coming out (while kind of poking my face)’. I vividly remember saying to him ‘Darl, it’s minus 20 degrees outside and snowing, these aren’t freckles’! And so his endearing nature towards it has made me feel more comfortable with it. Maybe I have just got used to it?
Finally, I would absolutely consider having laser treatment to remove the pigmentation in the future. After doing some research (yup – you guessed it, another hefty googleathon and a conversation with a dermatologist) I was made aware that melasma can come back with further pregnancies. It is in the life plan to have a second child, so it seems silly to spend all the wonga and time and bare the pain (I believe the first couple of sessions are rather painful) only for it to potentially return during another pregnancy and have to do the whole laser thing again.
I’d love to know if any of you have had any experience with melasma and if you would recommend any silver bullet products or treatments that you found helped fade the pigmentation?
I have no experience or tips, but thank you for sharing your story Nicola.
Thank you for speaking a little about prenatal depression too, something very close to my heart and something we need to speak more about ❤x
Hi Karen,
I don’t know if it was hitting 20 weeks and feeling energetic again, or finding out the sex (i was always adamant pre pregnancy that I wouldn’t as love surprises) – but fro the mid way point my sadness just lifted. There is very little information out there though, pls write something!
x
I’m so glad it didn’t get its grip on you lovely ❤
My darling cousin suffered with perinatal depression; we lost them both in August last year. It’s still very raw for the family but we hope one day her experience can help other women.
I’m hoping to call on Lottie when the time is right and perhaps share her story with the RMF community xx
That breaks my heart Karen. Big love to you and yours.
Gosh Karen, that is so sad to read. Big love to your family xxx
Big love ladies ❤❤❤
Thanks for talking about your experiences! I developed melasma during pregnancy, but my son is now 2 and a half and it’s still there, albeit slightly more ‘broken up’. I have 2 sweeps of it, on my orbital bone under my eyes. It has the effect of making me look exhausted and very unwell! I’ve been using the Clinique Even Better range for years, due to sun sensitivity and being prone to scarring. I’m unsure if this has made the small amount of difference. I can cover it well with bare minerals makeup with out looking overly made up. I’m more used to it now, but at 1st was quite distressed with how visible it was!
Thanks for the tip about Bare Minerals, Rachel. You’re right, I think it is definitely something you get used to, at first it is like having a major spot that all you see is IT… hope your two and a half year old is super awesome
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Hi Nicola! 🙂
I have no experience of this but great post and thanks for sharing. I just wanted to say hi 🙂
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Stef!! How I miss chatting to you via blog posts. Hope you, Ciaran and your perfect Scottish complexion are brill
xxxx
Hi Nicola
I have no experience of this either but just wanted to say I think you look gorgeous in the photo on the right (obviously you look stunning in the photo on the left too!) but I honestly think you look beautiful with it. I’ve always really wanted freckles and whilst I can see that it’s a bit more than ‘just’ freckles, I still think you look stunning.
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Anna, you are the kindest. Thank you for the big smile your sweet comment has made me have. All i can see in the photo on the right is that big newborn baby and tiny toes… dreamy!
xx
You look stunning and super glowly in that pic with your little. Really great piece; definitely hits home with me, I really didn’t enjoy being pregnant at all and just found out am pregnant again by mistake (silly me I hear you say) I know I should be super thankful but to be honest am dreading another 9 months of the pregnancy ride. My little is only 10 months already so find it truly exhausting already. Like some of the other recent posts about returning to oneself I was only just starting to feel a bit like me again. xx
Hi Nicola, like Charlotte mentioned I got melasma thanks to the contraceptive pill I was using (long before I had my baby) – mines on my forehead, upper lip and nose and while it didn’t get any worse while I was pregnant with my son it hasn’t improved much either. I did have good results with a retinol cream though so when I’m finished breastfeeding I might well try it again. With copious amounts of sun cream every day of course!
Hi Alice, I haven’t heard of it being related to the pill before today. I have it ever so slightly on my lip too, can often get away with it looking like a lip liner job from the 90s. One of my besties gets it on her lip if not careful enough in the sun – on summer holidays we are on Tash Watch!! Her hen do in Ibiza, which was only a few weeks before her wedding was quite the watch. The retinol serum that I mentioned while expensive has been awesome. I know there are medical grade ones (prescribed via derms) that I might try one day…. keep schlapping on that SPF xxx
Yes mine was presecribed privately by a dermatologist, at GREAT expense ?. Tach watch sounds like a club I’m destined to join! ?
What beautiful photographs.
I feel similarly to you, that pregnancy hasn’t been the smoothest ride. Even when I consider how lucky I have been to miss out on so many debilitating side effects.
Please don’t feel you aren’t able to share your experiences. It makes me feel better knowing that others are having a tricky time adjusting to this period. I found Emma Case’s blog post was great for this too. I’ll try and add the link if I can find it! x
http://emmacasephotography.blogspot.co.uk/2016/04/pregnancy_59.html
UM WOW – thank you for sharing this blog post, Charlie. Emma’s words, though much more eloquent than me trying to explain my own feelings – are exactly how I feel/felt. It is incredible. I kept saying YES, Yes, Yes as I was reading it (hmmm… sounds a bit When Harry Met Sally). I look back and realise that i did enjoy my pregnancy – i didn’t enjoy trying to understand my feelings about being pregnant etc. PS these photos are the very handy work of Morgane (M and J Photos) who can make anyone look good! Thanks again for your comments xxx
Can I just say this isn’t too far off how I feel sometimes! (I am 29 weeks). Some days I am genuinely excited, but many other days I just feel so overwhelmed and with no idea what to expect. Thank you for posting this link, Charlie!
Hi Stacey, not that you have asked for my advice, but being all sistahood and all, i am offering it out there – try and switch the brain off from working over time and relax… i wish i could do it more. All i can tell you is that it is going to be an incredible experience and if you’re anything like me you’ll be double questioning yourself if you are enjoying it (motherhood) *enough*, doing *enough* etc etc – expectation is the key word here… you just can’t possibly know what to expect – i keep telling myself this!! Wishing you an abundance of love and happiness with your little one when they get here xxx
Hi Rachel, I truly mean it when i say a HUGE congratulations. They change so much between 10 months and 17 months that I think by the time baby number 2 arrives you’ll be pleasantly surprised. I have been astounded by how much i can now communicate with Cassie – game changer! I have a few friends who have babies close together (and my nephews!) and while it might seem impossible to start, it always seems to work out sooooo brilliantly. I hope this second pregnancy is as easy as it can be so you feel like your good old self again. All the very, very best xx
Hello! I have no experience myself but my sister is still suffering dark blotches and her son is almost 7. I just remembered that Jenna Walden had mentioned she was receiving some sort of treatment that was working for her and thought it might be worth a Google?
Thanks Beck, I will do some googling (one of my fav things to do!) xx
I haven’t got any experience with melasma, and it may not be what you want to hear, but I think you look just as beautiful in both pics x
Ahh, thank you. I sound like a right attention seeker! x
Hi Nicola
I don’t have any experience of melasma but just wanted to say that the photo with your baby is gorgeous (and the wedding pic too of course!)
I read your post the other day however it popped into my head this morning when I read this Caroline Hirons post as she mentions that this product has been effective on melasma, it can also be used while pregnant/breastfeeding.
Available over the counter in the US only but hopefully you have a stateside buddy who could post some over to you.
http://www.carolinehirons.com/2017/03/differin-gel.html
ahhh thank you! i love Caroline Hirons (can you be a digital lady who doesn’t!?) but I haven’t seen this post. thanks so much, i may have to ask some American pals for a favour!! thanks for taking the time to pop over and point me in the right direction xxx